Well I was not sure about what could be my next thought here, to share with you people. But suddenly realized why not say about something that all of us know something about. Yes its nothing but loneliness.

I consider myself to be an expert of loneliness. I don’t say that with pride or satisfaction, but that’s just the way things have been for me. I can experience loneliness just as well in a crowded surrounding as in isolation. Sometimes it seems to even be a close friend of mine. There are times when it sort of pulls at your heart in such a sad, blue, painful, gut wrenching sort of way.

When I was a child, I often looked through the window, staring blankly at the stars. I kept wondering if there were people on other planets.



Through loneliness I have learned about the beauty and necessity of solitude. I have learned to do many things on my own that others would love to do. I could just walk alone where ever my feet takes me. Just sit alone in a beach listening to the sounds of the mighty sea. Dine alone to find pleasure in the peace and calmness. At times I meet other people who find pleasure in quietness just as I do. We glance and smile at each other, more or less saying ‘happy loner day’. Then we go back to our own solitude. Sometime not saying anything means much more.

There are many good things about loneliness. When you are alone, you can think everything without limitation, you can know more about your life. You can learn calmness from your loneliness. I can keep silent for weeks. I can talk with myself using my heart. I live in my own world that exits in my brain. It is full of peace and calm. I can hear the voice from my deep heart and I talk with it.

There was this time in my life when I forgot how to feel. My mind made an artificial shield, which made me impossible to bleed. Rejecting to feel things around, denying to feel the hurt. Suddenly when the shield ripped the ability to feel came back. The damage was severe and painful. It was the first test that life gave me and almost failed in that exam. But i lived on despite all the scars it left on. It changed the way I view life.

There are times when one needs to be lonely. May be it does feel sad and pathetic, but within that sad and pathetic feeling, we feel comfortable. Feeling lonely is much better than not feeling at all. There is this bitter sweet feeling in loneliness. Strange, but humans tend to enjoy this feeling. I do enjoy!